I don't really know what to say, but I'm stupid. There is one person that I just can't live without.. It seems like i'm hurting him all the time. Maybe I'm not the one for him? I want to be! I just feel stupid in this relationship. It hurts because I didn't mean to hurt him, but then I did. I don't know what controls me.. I'm just angry! Angry because how someone or I mean some.. treated me and I just can't forget. I don't know.. There is one thing I know and it's that I love him.. so much.. I just can't explaine how much he means to me. He's everything! 

I'm just stupid.. I try, but when someone is angry at me when i'm angry, then I'll get more angry. Tell me and then I'll think about it and calm down.. 

Right now I just can't talk to him.. I just can't! I'm so scared. Scared that he want's to leave me. I don't want that to happen. Now I'm going to make a decision and that is that I'm going to really take control of myself. I'll stop look and care about those bad peoples and focus on myself and the one I love.. I really promise!